Sir/Ma’m, May I Go Out

Whenever Mama and I would visit my elementary school, the Directress would always tell us, “ay nung sinabi nung guard na andyan daw si Jocelle, sabi ko ‘ay papasukin mo yan papasukin mo yan estudyante yan dito’.”

When I visited after 20 years, Ms. Castroberde walked up to me excitedly and gave me a hug just like you do when you meet an old friend you haven’t seen in years.

At the time of this picture, they smiled looking at me then Ms. Milan said, “di parin sya nagbabago.. Kita mo nga naman o, naka-shorts lang at t-shirt at backpack.”

These are the teachers who never complained about me being 30 and still looking like a High School student. Compared to the one who told me to remove my pigtails when I was in 4th yr HS in a different school. (I’ve forgiven but sorry I don’t think I will ever forget.)

Anyways, San Lorenzo Ruiz School in Meycauayan, Bulacan and all my teachers (from the Principal down to the “Ate Makring” in the canteen) will always have a special place in my life and heart. Sometimes I wonder what I would have become if I didn’t go to this school. Siguro nahinto na ako, then nag-asawa ako nang maaga. 

I’m grateful for all my teachers and professors, especially those professors who believed and supported our batch (pasaway kasi daw), and Sir Gomez who had my friend get me at the library and then told me “mas okay sa akin na pumasok ka kahit wala kang assignment kesa yung mag-absent ka sa klase ko dahil mas maraming mawawala syo”. ๐Ÿ˜ 

But I must really say that my teachers from SLRS are the most special. 

Thank you to all the wonderful maestros out there and much to those who continue to do their job with passion.

Happy Teacher’s Day, mga Ma’m and Sirs!. ๐Ÿ˜ I’m sorry I’m late. May I go out? ๐Ÿ˜‚

a.k.a Ka’ Pepe๐Ÿ‘ด๐Ÿผ

Married to Ka’ Cely.

He was an appraiser. Ang pagkaka-explain sa akin, pag may lumubog example na barko, he was the one who estimates the damage. May mga nagba-bribe sa kanya para pataasin yung value. Nandyang offeran sya ng bahay at lupa sa ibang bansa. Meron namang nagpapadala sa kanya ng banye-banyerang isda. Pero lahat yun di nya tinanggap. Edi sana siguro hindi ako laking Pilipinas ngayon, siguro sleeeng eke megshelite ne. Hahaha Yung banyerang isda? Ni hindi nya ginalaw o pinakain sa pamilya nya–pinamigay nya sa mga kapitbahay nila.

It always makes me proud whenever mama and tito mention that specific quality I got from you (bukod sa kulay๐Ÿ˜‚) – that is honesty (lalo na siguro sa suklian hahaha). Ni hindi ko nga rin kayang sumingit sa pila kung di pa ako kakaladkarin ng friends ko eh. 

Wala. Naalala ko lang. ๐Ÿ˜‰

Jose + Marcelia = Jocelle

So, to the man who gave the letters in his (and mami๐Ÿ‘ต๐Ÿผ’s) name to form mine.. 

to the “kidnapper” who would always snatch me from mama and papa to sleep with him and mami at night..

Happy Birthday, Dadi๐Ÿ‘ด๐Ÿฝ up there! ๐Ÿ’œ I love you since birth to your death, to mine. 

if I push you away..

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When I push you away,
It doesn’t mean I don’t want you to stay.
And if I ever want you out,
It doesn’t mean that I don’t want you around.

Sometimes I answer your questions impolitely.
And it always seems I talk to you only half-heartedly.
I may sound as if I’m always mad at you,
But believe me, it’s actually never true.

If I push you away, it doesn’t mean I want you to go
If I ask you to leave, at the same time I’m hoping you’d say “No”
My heart is full of fear so I keep pushing people away
Because I don’t think that someone would really like to stay.

I used to be attached to people I care,
There were those who made me believe they’d always be there.
Until one day, everything suddenly stopped between them and me
Even if I know I didn’t do anything, I still kept saying I’m sorry.

So I made up an imaginary wall since then
Learning not to care so much so I won’t be hurt again..
But I admit sometimes I wish that you will still stay
Every time I try so hard to push you away..