Sometimes, we all need a break from these little glowing boxes. How do you know when it’s time to unplug? What do you do to make it happen? – Daily Prompt
There really had been times when I know that I need to take a break from online social media – a break from telling the world how I feel through status messages , pictures, and tweets. Although I needed to take that break, I just couldn’t. Every time I would tell my friends that I will be on facebook hiatus, they just won’t believe me and I would normally get a raised eyebrow with them saying “totoo ba yan? di mo kaya (is it for real? No, you can’t do that)”. They won’t believe me because for the record, I am always known by my friends to be addicted to social media – I have facebook, twitter (@choruscel), instagram (@jokeljardin), and this wordpress account (joknut.wordpress.com). They would even sometimes name me as a social media queen as I do not only have these social media accounts, but I really do post a lot – every hour, every day, and every time I feel and think of anything to post.
Then there came a time, maybe a week ago when I thought that I seriously need to disconnect.. for real. This was the time when I feel so sad and depressed with what’s happening in my family life (and no friend to talk to about it) that I can no longer find it in my heart to post anything positive (and happy) or even stay online on facebook and browse my newsfeed. I once posted the following before I decided to be on hiatus:
“So many happy posts on facebook I can’t relate.”
and this one, a quote from the book The Perks of Being A Wallflower, which I was currently reading that time, that best explained how I was feeling.
After posting these, my hiatus became official. I did not post any more on facebook, but I would at least browse my newsfeed. Until a friend sent me message in LINE. “Ayaw mo mag-facebook?” (you don’t want facebook?), then I asked why and she answered by saying that it’s because she just noticed that she’s not seeing me (post updates) on facebook, then I finally told her that I am on facebook break for a change.
My FB hiatus didn’t last long, but I am glad that I finally was able to disconnect from it even for at least a week, whether or not my inactiveness was noticeable. A week of keeping myself from posting was somehow helpful. I got to think deeply without having to tell the world what is it I’m thinking.
And finally this thought lighted my thought bubble: I couldn’t just stay sad and depressed for a long time. I couldn’t be disconnected from the world forever. I need to stop thinking of things that make me sad.
From the Homily in one of the Holy Masses I heard, this one got stuck on my head: “Faith is the assurance of the things we hope for and the conviction of the things that we do not see.”
This told me and made me realize to stop worrying.
Finally, since it was only days before my birth month, October when I was in an FB hiatus, I thought to myself that I couldn’t be sad in October.. I want to be happy at least in all the days of the month when I was born. 🙂