“Thank You to that ‘minna’, my Special Someone”

This is just a short but sweet entry in response to 24htv’s “Thank You to that Special Someone”.. I just feel like answering the darts trip question “to whom would you want to say your special thanks to?”..

I would like to say thank you to

my ofc-friend zhela for introducing me to the world they call “fandom” when I started to like my first and last love (i mean ichiban) YamaPi..

“thank you” to A-chan@fb.. I won’t be a fan girl as I am now if I haven’t known that Yamashita Tomohisa fanpage.. (lol)

“thank you” to ate gail for posting an invite, which I will never regret I attended.. 🙂

“thank you” also to  for opening the door to NEWS fandom for me..

and the rest of NYUSU.ph@fb  and all the others who welcomed me to the COLORFUL world of NEWS as I got in..

and also “thank you” to  who made my LJ heaven.. 🙂 <3<3<3


..Thank You to that minna, my Special Someone
gomen ne~ my entries are kind of boring.. no cute smileys.. I can’t find any smiley here on my editor! can anybody tell (or teach) me where are the smileys gone..? hehe 🙂



[24HTV]: “Thank You to that Special Someone”

This is the first time I am able to watch 24-jikan terebi (24htv). I enjoyed last year’s theme with NEWS as hosts and so I decided to watch it real time this year (thanks to keyhole – nice nice!). A week ago, we thought NEWS will host 24htv again today, but unfortunately they just promoted the show since they were the hosts previously. Today’s host is the JE group TOKIO. By the way, I like Nagase Tomoya.. 🙂 So even though NEWS won’t be this year’s host, I still planned to watch it – not 24 hours perce though.. 🙂

Ja~ will just share with you all the screen caps I got from last night til today’s 24htv. So far, other JE artists that I saw were Ikuta Toma and Sakurai Sho (Arashi).. will still wait for NEWS to pop out of my screen.. (LOL) keep the faith, biriiv! 🙂

24htv: “Thank  You to that Special Someone”

"Thank You" screen caps

“hide and seek”

I always hide what i really feel
and later seek a place to scream
always hide and hold back my tears  from falling
while seeking courage to continue laughing..

17 yrs ago, when I was 9
almost the same thing happened to me, that time
all eyes at me, observing
expecting that I would end up crying..

the whole time they saw me laughing with my peers
that whole time I was hiding away my tears
my teachers said they thought “she was really tough”
they didnt know, as soon i got home, i sobbed.

2 days ago, somebody asked me “are you okay?”
i answered “yes, I am”
she asked again “are you really okay?”
again, while laughing “yes, I am. yes, I am”

almost every year for 3 yrs now
same thing happens, but I never asked, why nor how
but in those 3 yrs or so that is the only day
I was asked if I was okay..

I hid what I feel
and sought for something to laugh about
we were both laughing then but as soon i return
I can’t help but quietly sob..

you asked “are you okay?”
thank you for minding to ask
and for this alone, now I think I am.. 🙂



Moth..? or Butterfly?

Aug. 6, last friday.. nag-back-ride ako sa tryke papasok ng office..

Then I smiled when i suddenly saw a moth on my shoe..

thought to myself “hehehe.. moth ba to o butterfly..?”

I was about to take a picture of it, but too scared to accidentally drop my fone.. 🙂

It was a 3-5 minute tryke ride and I was smiling dumbly the whole time staring at that moth-terfly..

3-5 minute ride passed.

bumaba ng tryke.

looked down.. and saw the moth-terfly still on my shoe..

“baka naman patay na to..”

i told my youngest brother to take a picture of it.. pero nawala sya bigla..

next thing I know, it was flying around me..

dumapo sa salamin ko.. lumipad ulet..

bigla nawala..

andun na daw sa likod ko..

…so nakisakay lang pala itong moth na ito papuntang palengke.. para mas mabilis..

walang wentang wento ano..?

I was thinking ever since friday what to write about a moth..

then finally, I came up with this random thought..

the whole time I was back-riding, sa lakas ng hangin sa labas, hindi man lang nilipad un moth-terfly..

it clung, stayed on my shoe hanggang makarating sya ng palengke..

maybe I should learn from the moth..

believe, cling to your dreams and hold on to it until it is realized..

ngayon, may wenta na sya.. 🙂

(at least for me, meron) 🙂