Roll-Off.. in every project this is what each resource is waiting for.. roll-off dates.. minsan hindi pa nga nagsstart un project, kaka-receive palang minsan ng details kung kelan maroroll-in, una agad tanong is “kelan ako maroroll-off?”.. tama diba? hehe ..
3 months ago, Aug. 1.. i was rolled-in to another planet.. hehe.. if you could remember un roll-in date ko nun ni-treat ko as my doom’s day.. nilagay ko pa sa calendar ko.. hehe.. but only a few people know na it has been my dream to be part of that another planet nung newbie pa lang ako kase most of my batchmates were deployed there.. though i have with me master tiptip sa ormap, minsan din namin niwish to be part of the planet where master mice and ellie are..
..after my last project in ormap, when they told me na maloloan ako sa other planet, i became excited ..but scared.. excited na mangyayari un niwish ko dati, but too scared of what might happen to me when i get there.. shempre new environment, new people, new process, new everything except for the same faces i get a chance to somehow meet, or pass by everyday..
hmm.. edi yun.. i was rolled-in Aug.1.. i was loaned for dev/build work.. unexpectedly, gagawa din pala ako FD (functional design) as well as TD (tech.design).. nawindang ako.. kulang nlng talaga magwala ako..hehe.. parang teka teka bket ganun..anong malay ko dito.. magcode nga toinks pa ko kung minsan tpos FD?? TD?? hello.. anu buzz… hehehee…
that was the time i started to feel giving up.. i wanted to go back home as soon as possible.. (but never it became possible).. the mothership (my mgr.) told me na sandali lang yan, di mo mamamalayan november na at isa ka ng matatag na developer.. pero di parin ako na-pacify ng ganun ganun lang.. after we discussed about it, wala parin.. i still wanted to go back.. hehehe.. and from then, i would always count days kung ilan pa bago magNovember, and i would always sigh na sana november na talaga..
days passed.. Aug.23.. that’s when what every resource fears started to make itself known.. haha! start na ng patayan.. madugong pakikipagsapalaran.. hahahahaha.. =D ..eto un first time ko magwork ng saturday afternoon until sunday morning, minsan pa nga 24 hrs straight ka na nasa ofc kaharap ang forms builder magdamag, walang liguan, hilamos lang at brush brush.. san ka pa.. exhausting though but i must say that it had been fun.. that’s when i started to have bonding moments w/ my other teammates.. tiring but fun.. i must admit na naging thankful din ako for such an experience..
mid-October.. i suddenly feel like i did not want the project to end anymore.. parang yoko na matapos un project, parang ayaw ko na muna magNovember–ayaw ko muna dumating un roll-off day ko.. pero gusto ko matapos un hirap.. parang gusto ko pigilan un araw..nakakainis.. ayoko pa.. ayoko pa… maybe because i have already learned to appreciate everyone in the team.. lahat kase sila nabibiro ko na.. nakukulet ko na silang lahat.. wala nakong sariling mundo when im with them..
.stressful ang work, and there were times na dahil sa sobrang stress at kakapagod ang mga ginagawa namin, we sometimes can’t help but get emotional.. lam niyo un, minsan umiinit na ang mga ulo, nagddrama na rin minsan, naiiyak sa ginagawa, minsan din parang gusto ko na kainin na lang ako ng floor bigla.. madami nko naisip gawin nun tipong “pakain nlng kaya ako sa floor”.. hehehe.. pero dala lang talaga ng stress un.. hehe
what’s nice about the team is that.. each and every one of us eh mga natural na makukulet.. ultimo lead.. eto un team na kahit na sobrang stress sa work eh lagi kame nakatawa, nagtatawanan, at may pinagtatawanan which is mga sari-sarili lang din namin.. hehe.. funny how we seem to have no tasks to finish, no deadlines to meet kase nakukuha pa namin maglaro ng WF (word factory) which became our logical break… pag hindi na kase kinakaya bigla nlng may magyayaya ng “o! WF naman, tara tara!” ..hehe.. o diba.. masaya..! 🙂
..then came my roll-off day.. awww.. eto nga .. this is really is it kumbaga.. week before my roll-off day nainform na kame na maroroll off nako.. 50-50 nafeel ko nun, i was excited kase eto na un hangganan ng paghihirap ..hehehe lalim.. hehe.. but on the other hand i suddenly feel sad.. kase bigla ako ni-pop nung isa kong kateam who just said “nakakalungkot naman..”… awww.. kahit pala minsan maloko at mabiro siya seryoso naman daw siya sa sinabi nyang nakakalungkot naman ..ayun.. hehehe..
on Monday, November 17 i’ll be going back to my “home”.. i missed my home.. and im excited to go back..
i will surely miss the other planet….
..the planet that i have learned to call my second home.. 🙂